Sunday, March 6th, 2005
1:55 am
mirror
shiny, slick, and a stranger looking back at her, bruises and smudges under her eyes that have nothing to do with makeup, and a rats nest of hair, and fingers that won't keep still.
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
11:01 pm
wires
puppet strings, or maybe spiders webs, holding down, holdng up, holding tight and never letting go. Other people think of power flowing through cables, and I think of puppet strings that can't be cut.
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Saturday, January 29th, 2005
12:12 am
ocean
it scares him, that expanse, all that power and life and death and emptiness and dependency. It scares him and when they walk on the beach he turns his eyes to the shore side, and focuses on the solidity of the sand.
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Thursday, January 27th, 2005
1:34 pm
slept
blank and warm and calm and finally at peace, curled in on herself with the duvet pulled high against her face and only fingertips to be seen, a vague padded outine underneath, and finally she was home.
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
12:07 am
gin
thin and bitter on her lips, and violent heat down her throat, tracing a hundred kisses and finger tips and pearls. Coctails and swing bands and skirts that brushed at the beck of her knees, and laughter and 2am smiles.
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Friday, January 21st, 2005
7:43 pm
sweat
skin on skin, slow, eternal movements that made his breath catch and hold and everything else vanish. Sweat slick skin under his fingers and muscles moving underneath, and heat and fullness and perfection
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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
12:00 am
rug
rough on her skin, crumbs and warp and weft and the hard slick patch where a candle had spilled wax that would not come away clean from the cotton threads.
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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
12:02 am
zoo
it was a zoo in the canteen as the upper and lower schools cross paths, chairs scraping and voices raised over hte hubbub in a tsunami of childish squabbles, the latest gossip, senior's scorn and inexplicable rivalries. Jake had never been so glad that he was almost a free man.
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Saturday, January 8th, 2005
9:14 pm
lightening
the kiss came from no-where, just a peck on the cheak, low down, near his mouth, and when he blinked and opened his eyes, everything was different somehow, and the warm fingers on his arm meant something altogether else.
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
12:31 am
designed
carefull and cautious, aimed and focussed, starting from the goal rather than growing from the materials, everything about his old life had been designed, and none of it had suited his soul like the messy, organic freedom of the present
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
1:52 pm
punch
punch drunk and half hysterical, leaning against the corredor wall, catching each other's eye and howling with laughter. 2am insane, together against the rest of those slug-a-beds, and altogether perfect for the end of term
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
1:16 pm
three
Balance is the tricky bit, sopending enough time one on one, and enough attention every which way when they were all three together, and carving out time for yourself as well. It's tricky. But then, triangles are strong as fuck when they're locked in, so that's ok
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
1:14 am
stone
smooth and hard, worn to perfection by passing hands but enduring all of them, taking in each touch, changed by it but not in essence changing.
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Sunday, September 26th, 2004
3:10 am
Less
Somehow the bar had become just a job. Something to bitch about when he woke up with his back stiff and his eyes blurry and had to roll up into the damp cold of his flat and pull on clothes and pull back the bolts and start cleaning up and starting over again and again.
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Sunday, September 19th, 2004
4:51 pm
vague
the edges of everything were just - fuzzy. blended. grey. kinda soft. Or like they would be if you touched, only you can't really touch street lamps and people in the rain when there's cold misted glass in the way and only a burnt out bulb and an empty bed on your side of it.
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Thursday, September 16th, 2004
11:33 pm
faint
she's passed out - any number of times actually - too much to drink, to many pills, not enough sleep, one one notable occasion coming so hard she'd smacked her head on the bed side table - but never fainted. Nothing like a proper lady.
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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
3:48 pm
stereo
duality. Except that would suggest an opposition of opinions instead of the steady stream of the exact same advice, suggestion, plans and projections that he was hearing from both friends, both lovers.
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
4:58 pm
reach
stretching, rolling as far as he could with the edge of the mattress hard against his ribs and carefull not to slide away from his lover's resting hand or out of bed entirely, the very tips of his fingers snagged on the light pull, and one final tug brought blessed darkness.
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Saturday, September 4th, 2004
7:36 pm
blanket
warmth and comfort and spurious security, but on a miserable afternoon with rain on the windows and his head feeling like it was stuffed solid with ill, he'd take that security, wrap every shred of comfort he could find around himself, and just hide for a while.
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
4:52 pm
Dusk
It ought to be magic and mystery and romance and excitement, but what it actually is is half light and drizzle and nearly getting knocked off your bike by some tosser driving a silver ghost car and talking on a mobile phone, and coming home to an empty house.
[so that's Luke in a bad mood then .....]
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
4:39 pm
logic
green before red, blue before white, savory before sweet, love before pain, blood before sex.
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004
11:49 am
giraffe
*blink*
*blink*
No - still there.
like a cartoon come to life, and so totaly out of place it couldn;t have been more sureal if he'd actually woken up in Twelve Monkeys.
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Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
12:37 am
explore
it's kind of scary, looking out into the dark and the shadows around the edges, but he knows everything there is to know withing the narrow circle of the burners, so what else is he to do? Sit and fester, watching the elders die one by one, or head out into the darkness and try?
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Monday, June 28th, 2004
12:40 am
seldom
rare moments of clarity - golden dust motes in sunlight or something - not like that but the unusual moments where the brain takes off down seldom taken byroads and ends you up somewhere you couldn't have expected.
*****
it makes me a little sad that they've had to resort to sponsorship - the farewell message now reads 'go check out the sponser links and then tell someone you love them' and - yeah. I liked that it wasn't a commercial zone.
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
9:13 pm
wash
dirty grey light coming in through dingy mylon lace curtains - the flat was a depressing dump. Flat. More like a room, furnished by a psychotic pensioner who hated students.
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Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
11:36 am
grey
Grey - the word's spelt *grey* and that little bout of persnickety nitpicking has completley frozen my brain for anything more creative to do with it.
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Sunday, June 13th, 2004
11:23 pm
moose
moose, moose, moose on the loose!
except that nursery rhyme chant is only hysterical if your five, and not when there's a couple of tons of bull moose standing in the middle of the road and ice under your wheels and FUCK!
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Friday, June 11th, 2004
1:18 am
goo
oh god that's disgusting! No way. Who the *hell* think's babies are cute, with their grabbing hands and stinking daipers and mouthing rusks to pasty goo and spreading that all over with ting crawling fingers.
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Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
12:26 am
ink #2
crawling over the skin like scratches, worms, maggots and corruption in ink and pigment-mixed blood, to summon and to bind, to call and to capture, liminal but without bounds.
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Monday, June 7th, 2004
10:25 am
ink
The desktop is scratched, etched and tattoed with the minutie of school politics. Benton hearts Fran, maths sucks, Bill sucks dick. Blue ink and blond scarred wood.
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Sunday, June 6th, 2004
6:56 pm
doctor
it didn't take much to fix the rsults the way she wanted them. Not too good, because nothing was more likely to make an admin assistant decide to cross check than a string of perfect 4.0's, but pretty damn healthy. If you're going to go to all the effort of hacking the computing dept to doctor your grades, it has to be worthwhile.
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
1:38 pm
solve
He turned the puzzle box round and round in his hands. Smooth and cool and heavy - metal denser than he'd expected the first time he'd touched it. The pattern of interlocking blocks, slight shadings in steel on steel, slick ridges between the sections, and no closer to a solution than he'd been then.
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Monday, May 24th, 2004
1:00 pm
sour
the sour little twist to her mouth was just the cherry on the god damned pie. You'd have thought he'd insulted her mother and tried to mack on her while her husband was holding her pretty little hand from the look of her, and when all he had done was say howdie, how's that meant to make a man feel welcome?
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Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
2:01 am
After
there's a fault line in your memories. Before and After, and it's not even like it was such a big event at the time. If you'd realised that that was going to be your watershed maybe you'd have done thing's differently instead of being stuck now After the argument.
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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
1:34 pm
Barely
it's all about the posibility that things could have gone another way - barely graduated, barely made it, barely got one foot on the ladder - and it all makes you so aware of the other universes where you didn't, where you went out instead of studying, or where you kissed Darrel instead of Alicia. It makes you wonder about 'barely worth it'.
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Monday, May 17th, 2004
6:00 pm
half
lost - that's all he can feel - lost without the other half of his soul, his world, his *self* and if he should have known better than to give anyone that much of his heart, well then he was stupid as well as lost, and he can accept that if he has too.
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Sunday, May 9th, 2004
10:04 pm
grade
flour pushed through mesh after mesh untill it's soft like skin and dreams and scented with the purest oils and rubbed through linen and silk again to work out the lumps - only the finest cosmetics for my lady.
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Friday, May 7th, 2004
4:50 pm
Daisy
daisy chain - not as easy as it looks. Nothing like it's innocent counterpart, which was all delicate concentration and cut grass and sunshine and skinned knees in his memory. No, daisychains these days were sweat and lube and come and loosing himself completely.
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Thursday, May 6th, 2004
2:12 pm
return
"that's a key factor in deciding that, you know?"
she taps her cigarette ash out into the tin tray and takes a sip of whisky.
"how many times you go back to someone, and how many times after than he comes to you and keeps coming when you never let him in."
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Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
4:36 pm
crisis
oh if only you knew! Whch you won't, because I'm doing quite scarily well at locking the screams and the tears in with the headache and smiling and sounding fine. The thing about crises? They pass. Like fever breaking. If they don't break you first.
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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
6:26 pm
raise
it's been something to watch it go up - progress almost every day - even over night sometimes, with the arc lights going and three teams of workmen, and it's like a phoenix, somehow, sleek and golden and vibrant out of the ashes and dust, and it seems kinda wrong that it'll still be 'just' the Heisman building.
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Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
11:10 pm
synthetic
fake and bright on her tongue, sweeter than sugar and a texture not to be found anywhere in nature - perfect cotton candy, in fact, folding like air into temporary sticky wads at the back of her mouth and dissolving into chemicals and silliness as she swallowed, eager to lick the last threads from her lover's lips.
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Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
11:48 am
click
Clean and sharp and dispassionate. The click of a thousand keys under tens of fingers, and nothing in the steady clatter gave any clue to the occasional men who walked through the pool about the emotions that filled the room.
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Friday, April 16th, 2004
12:05 am
clever
Clever ought to be a compliment, but somehow ... no. Not in that tone of voice, not with that look, that tilt to the shoulders.
"You're a clever lad. You'll figure things out."
threats heavy in the air, and he still didn't know.
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
11:32 pm
raise
He felt helpless in the face of the seemingly effortless asscent his one-time colleague made through the ranks, year on year, always the youngest, the most-decorated, the most golden, and by his side everyone else was as in shadow, and yet still he could not find it in his heart to hate the man.
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Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
5:04 pm
Copy
It's a careful act of artifice and observation.
Hours of practice to get the line of the eyeshadow just so, to match the shade of the gloss, touch up the hair to the perfect shine and style. The walk, the hand motions, the little scrunch of the nose when she knows she shouldn't be laughing.
Just like her.
It's a careful act of worship.
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Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
12:32 am
brand
The logo was white, clear against the weathered tan and raised veins of the back of his hand, his wrist. The other mark, the one that had stayed an angry red for so long, blended cream into cream unseen elsewhere.
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Friday, April 2nd, 2004
4:48 pm
PLAYGROUND
sitting on the swings at night, once the drunks are long gone and the air is col and damp with dewm and there's nothing but the very distant burr of traffic and the odd bird that's forgetten that streetlamps don't make a dawn - that's where there is peace and space to think.
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Thursday, April 1st, 2004
1:30 am
complete
worn smooth by the years of water rolling over it, the stone is smooth, pale dove grey against the cold chapped redness of her hand. Smooth and round and solid, filling her palm, like the waves and the wind and the gulls filled her ears, like her memories filled her heart.
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Thursday, March 18th, 2004
12:09 am
green
bottle glass washed soft and milky with salt water and sand.
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Monday, March 15th, 2004
12:26 am
Flight
with the lights flashing and sweat burning in her eyes, muscles screaming in acid and the beat driven the roiling bodies around her, nothing could reach her, pull her down, pull her back, force her to remember.
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Friday, March 12th, 2004
12:53 am
orchid
Silver and blue, harsh bright colours and an elegent sweep - unnatural, fixed, and an act of beauty, every element in key, every aspect spot on to create that impace as she stood carefully framed in the door and let the room fall sient and notice her.
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Friday, March 5th, 2004
12:26 am
Nails
The clean slick slide of new nailvarnish under her fingertips was a neat sensation. Almost as neat as the play of shine off the metalic shine and the colours that refracted like rainbows from the spinning lights.
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
4:59 pm
Charm
On the surface it can be sleazy. A slick coating that's meant to ease things and only leaves a grimy reside. But when it's sincere and whole - that smile or that moment of connection, then it can light you up and the sheen is like wood varnished with a thousand touches of hands on a newel post
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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
11:40 am
continue
Pick up the toys, collect up the plates and the mugs, rinse out the bottles, check in on the sleeping babes under their warm fleece blankies. Whipe down the kitchen surfaces, empty the bin, dig the lego out from the sofa cushions, listen to the kidlets breathing deap and even.
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Monday, March 1st, 2004
11:10 am
Worthless.
If someone's yelling abuse, at least they've noticced you. Even a punch, red with rage and blood, is better than a casual back hander or a body-block between you and whatever it is that is worth their attention, thier desire.
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
8:20 pm
withdrawn
She could make out five different colours in her nail vernish, like archeological layers where it had peeled, or where she'd picked at it. That was only on her left hand. Seeing her right would mean unwinding from her little curl of misery on the wrinkled sheets.
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Saturday, February 28th, 2004
2:05 am
crept
he wasn't really paying attention, so the whole think pretty much crept up on him, tiny little changes day in day out that meant that all of a sudden he was facing the fact that his friend was licking his neck and he wasn't *expecting* it and he couldn't quite fathom all the concequences, but no doubt about it, he liked it.
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
12:21 pm
Union
His eyes locked on yours, not even the tiny glances flicking to his lips, your tongue, the point where the light catches his piercing, none of that breaks the totality of gaze.
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
12:00 pm
Reaching
Nothing is ever easy, and the few thing that do seem to fall into your lap are never the things that you actually really wanted, coming to you too easy to just hold you down when you should be stretching for the real prize, the true and real and perfect things.
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
1:50 pm
minimum
It's the least you could do!
No - really - this is.
It's a stupid sit-com come back, but really, a few minutes just alone, please? Alone without people and responsibilities and 'ought to do's and questions and just a base line minimum of imput.
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
5:19 pm
wick
Candle light, all butter and warmth, a hazy glow licking over skin and fur and silks, and then with focus, with attention narrowing down to a tiny spark of pure white heat dancing on a blackened speck of string.
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
12:22 am
North
It's like a loadstone, a constant awareness of where home is. Not where he's living, of course, although that would be more usefull when he's three sheets to the wind and the fucking earth is showing off it's curvature, but to *home*. True north to his heart, or some such bullshit.
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
12:51 am
Switch
Just like that she changed. The yeilding agreeable flirtation morphed into sound and furry and sharp beating hands and a kick to the crotch that left him breathless, eyes burning, bent over and able only to hear the clatter of heels on concrete as she ran.
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:53 pm
cracked
"you're crazy" seems to be something she's hearing a lot lately. "You nuts?" Lots of other variations on a theme, and really, truly? All she wanted was the same as anyone else - to do something that would make her happy and keep a roof over her head, some gas in the tank, and a little bit over for toys and treats.
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2:43 am
candy
Cotton candy, gritty and pink-sweet on your tongue and sticky fingers catching on hair in the wind, with the lights swirling in the dark and the music filling the fairground
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Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
4:45 pm
Bike
Two of my guys are big with the bike love - pedal bikes. Luke for the exercise as much as the freedom, Tom because that's just who he is - he'll probably never get a car as long as he lives in London. Probably neither would Luke and I've only just realised how similarn they are in this.
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
10:10 am
Anniversary
It's all about the memories, and to be honest he finds it kinda scary, trying to remember who he used to be and knowing how long it's been by the way that everything's changed but without him ever noticing.
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Monday, February 9th, 2004
10:51 am
Coaster
Once the coasters were neatly alligned with the corners of the ironed embroidered runner, the flowers - an iris for Lily and a rose for Beth - turned to face them, the clock ticking was loud in the room.
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
12:39 am
repeat
Sometimes it's the only thing that sinks in, that eventually gets under your skin and into your bones and gets you to trust that it's really real. Simple repetition, over and over, the slighest variations to keep you from boiling anger, and endless reaassurance that it's true.
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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
12:35 am
Formal
There'sa grace to her movements that it's rare to see, nowadays. Even in her most relaxed moments she is aware, not only of the shadings of ettiquete, but of their principle, the concern for the comfort of others. She is a true lady.
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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
2:51 pm
Camera
The cameras were a way to be someone else, a way to heat-seal the edges of the masks with lights and business. A way to show the surface and keep the rest of himself safely hidden in plain view.
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
11:03 am
Least.
Least is a meak and vicious word. The least you could do, the knife edged whine of suburbia. At least it's not worse, right? At least you're not actually a hooker, an addict. At least you're still in school. It's the least you could do.
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Sunday, January 25th, 2004
11:34 pm
Branch
Bare branches against the sky. Connections and divisions, a spiralled, spidered map of friends and aquaintences, lovers, feuds, tribes, family, users and usees,world without end, amen.
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1:43 am
Aside to self
I need to figure out when the oneword site is updated - it's faintly disatisfying to see the list of words-that-I-missed after having checked back once or twice and found the same word, unchanged. And yes, i could do them anyway, but somehow that seems wrong.
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1:43 am
Used
The handle fits his palm, worn wood like satin, warm and almost alive, transmiting the blade up into him though every practised motion.
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Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
11:56 pm
clarity
Sharp clear mountain air and time to step outside the whole situation, literally and metaphorically. Come back with the music blazing and a plan of action, tired in the muscles and awake in the brain.
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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
3:20 pm
Flight
soaring or running? towards or away? Figuring that out is always the tricky part.
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Monday, January 19th, 2004
11:14 pm
Burn
music like lightening and chemical thunder, driving him on and standing every hair on him edge up and sparking against the smoke and the neon. Burn bright, burn hard, burn out.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
10:39 pm
Curtain
net curtain's twitching - that ultimate symbol of working class suburban conformity, but curtains draped in decedent richness conceal and reveal, seven veils, the decadent also.
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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
4:52 pm
Weakness
Having that soft point always worried him - that people would see it, and worse see it as weakness, as the potential for being hamstrung that he could never quite forget about. Kindness. Weakness. Not the same, most of the time.
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Sunday, January 11th, 2004
12:03 am
Haunt
Memories made it hard to stay - memories so clear they were more like ghosts of people who might not have died yet, but certainly were no longer who they had been then. So hard to stay here in this club with the corners full of whispers and no one to shake the memories away with laughter and vodka.
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Friday, January 9th, 2004
5:12 pm
logic
there's no reason to assume that just because I'm a woman I'm not logical. Not only can I code round you with one arm tied behind my back, mr, ignoring the 'logic' of your rules makes a lot of sense. Got me you didn't it?
[Mal speaking to Neo, I think]
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
4:27 pm
Clean
Clear and simple - that's how things should be, right? Clean lines. No clutter or mess or tangles or ties. The more he throught about it the more it sounded like 'cold and hard and lonely'
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
4:29 pm
Ready
set, Go! summoning memories of school sports and girl guides, and otherwise stalling my brain, apparently.
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Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
12:57 am
note
worthy - and also ephemeral, be it pen and skin, pencil and paper, chalk and board, or a souring sustained vocal joy.
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
10:16 pm
precision
obsession. Care and control. Neat, without the nifty. It ought to be souless, but a robot can be precise. Precission is soul-driven. focussed. channelled and trammelled and building and one day breaking.
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Monday, December 29th, 2003
4:05 am
stream
The tug of water running around his ankles was enough to draw the anger out of him, the steady stream of muttered curses ebbing in the tumble of the current.
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Monday, December 15th, 2003
11:13 am
Elements
If you keep disecting then you end up with nothing except pure hard elements of cold heavy events, and she wasn't ready to bury the living fluttering emotional synthesis of it all just yet.
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
11:40 am
Discontent
Itchy in her skin, picky and fussing and unable to settle to anything. Not music, not code, not even a whole three minute video on EAM. In the end she threw the remote across the room and grabbed boots and her car keys and headed for the door.
[note : EAM is the Eden Alternative channel, and this snippet is Mal - the word chimed so strongly with her muse space right now.]
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Monday, December 8th, 2003
2:04 pm
Regard
it's a calm cool thing, regard, like viewing the blood tooth and nail action from behind a safety glass screen, and yet somehow the kiss of it is worth more, in some twisted way, than the smack of closer observation.
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Thursday, December 4th, 2003
10:55 pm
Constant.
Iit's not a flashy virtue. It's not heroism, or charisma, or besting someone in combat or saving the day. It's not great art or a voice that would hold a songbird spellbound, but it's something. Being constant.
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Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
11:46 pm
Depth
That's what he's alway's worried he doesn't have - what he was attracted to in other people, and what he maybe drowned out by trying too hard. Depth of character - reserves - something that would make you think 'yeah - there's a guy who could cope in a crisis - someone who knows who he is.
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Monday, November 17th, 2003
11:45 am
Orchestra
think music,
think power,
think emotion,
think class,
think money,
think alien,
think more than the sum of it's parts,
think talent and years of work and beautiful ephemeral things.
Think joy and tears and the way the hairs on the back of your neck lift in the presence of beauty.
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Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
10:59 am
skills
hard won or innate? Warp and weft of identity - skills and character.
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Thursday, November 6th, 2003
9:37 am
bank
mounds of money - how's that for two in one? Safety, surity, defence, obstruction, walled in and walled out, like a maze of burial mounds.
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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
12:40 am
Foundation
That's strength - not height but roots. Perminance, strength; the unseen unsung that enables the soaring glory.
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Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
3:11 pm
Scout
Honour - at least on the surface, but really it's all about the reconnoitring, looking out for your group, keeping the way clear and safe so that they don't even know there's anything that they needed to have worried about. Clearing the path, literal or metaphorical.
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Friday, October 17th, 2003
6:31 pm
Final
Heavy and definite and complete. Unlike it's architectural bretherin, then. and yet 'Fin' is not 'completed'. and thein lies pathos.
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Thursday, October 16th, 2003
1:05 pm
Forward
shiny dynamic 50's robots and space sheeps[1] and it's sleek and hard and cultural MSG, when really, incrimental baby steps, day on day, inch on inch, and just don't *stop*.
[1] I meant ships, but on reflection : the freudian typo can stay.
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Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
5:38 pm
Dedicate
It's got to be something heart and soul to count - not a paper whisper thin dedication, dry ink and limp linen inscription, but hale and hearty and bleeding with truth and trying.
1:55 am
mirror
shiny, slick, and a stranger looking back at her, bruises and smudges under her eyes that have nothing to do with makeup, and a rats nest of hair, and fingers that won't keep still.
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
11:01 pm
wires
puppet strings, or maybe spiders webs, holding down, holdng up, holding tight and never letting go. Other people think of power flowing through cables, and I think of puppet strings that can't be cut.
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Saturday, January 29th, 2005
12:12 am
ocean
it scares him, that expanse, all that power and life and death and emptiness and dependency. It scares him and when they walk on the beach he turns his eyes to the shore side, and focuses on the solidity of the sand.
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Thursday, January 27th, 2005
1:34 pm
slept
blank and warm and calm and finally at peace, curled in on herself with the duvet pulled high against her face and only fingertips to be seen, a vague padded outine underneath, and finally she was home.
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
12:07 am
gin
thin and bitter on her lips, and violent heat down her throat, tracing a hundred kisses and finger tips and pearls. Coctails and swing bands and skirts that brushed at the beck of her knees, and laughter and 2am smiles.
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Friday, January 21st, 2005
7:43 pm
sweat
skin on skin, slow, eternal movements that made his breath catch and hold and everything else vanish. Sweat slick skin under his fingers and muscles moving underneath, and heat and fullness and perfection
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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
12:00 am
rug
rough on her skin, crumbs and warp and weft and the hard slick patch where a candle had spilled wax that would not come away clean from the cotton threads.
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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
12:02 am
zoo
it was a zoo in the canteen as the upper and lower schools cross paths, chairs scraping and voices raised over hte hubbub in a tsunami of childish squabbles, the latest gossip, senior's scorn and inexplicable rivalries. Jake had never been so glad that he was almost a free man.
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Saturday, January 8th, 2005
9:14 pm
lightening
the kiss came from no-where, just a peck on the cheak, low down, near his mouth, and when he blinked and opened his eyes, everything was different somehow, and the warm fingers on his arm meant something altogether else.
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
12:31 am
designed
carefull and cautious, aimed and focussed, starting from the goal rather than growing from the materials, everything about his old life had been designed, and none of it had suited his soul like the messy, organic freedom of the present
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
1:52 pm
punch
punch drunk and half hysterical, leaning against the corredor wall, catching each other's eye and howling with laughter. 2am insane, together against the rest of those slug-a-beds, and altogether perfect for the end of term
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
1:16 pm
three
Balance is the tricky bit, sopending enough time one on one, and enough attention every which way when they were all three together, and carving out time for yourself as well. It's tricky. But then, triangles are strong as fuck when they're locked in, so that's ok
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
1:14 am
stone
smooth and hard, worn to perfection by passing hands but enduring all of them, taking in each touch, changed by it but not in essence changing.
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Sunday, September 26th, 2004
3:10 am
Less
Somehow the bar had become just a job. Something to bitch about when he woke up with his back stiff and his eyes blurry and had to roll up into the damp cold of his flat and pull on clothes and pull back the bolts and start cleaning up and starting over again and again.
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Sunday, September 19th, 2004
4:51 pm
vague
the edges of everything were just - fuzzy. blended. grey. kinda soft. Or like they would be if you touched, only you can't really touch street lamps and people in the rain when there's cold misted glass in the way and only a burnt out bulb and an empty bed on your side of it.
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Thursday, September 16th, 2004
11:33 pm
faint
she's passed out - any number of times actually - too much to drink, to many pills, not enough sleep, one one notable occasion coming so hard she'd smacked her head on the bed side table - but never fainted. Nothing like a proper lady.
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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
3:48 pm
stereo
duality. Except that would suggest an opposition of opinions instead of the steady stream of the exact same advice, suggestion, plans and projections that he was hearing from both friends, both lovers.
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
4:58 pm
reach
stretching, rolling as far as he could with the edge of the mattress hard against his ribs and carefull not to slide away from his lover's resting hand or out of bed entirely, the very tips of his fingers snagged on the light pull, and one final tug brought blessed darkness.
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Saturday, September 4th, 2004
7:36 pm
blanket
warmth and comfort and spurious security, but on a miserable afternoon with rain on the windows and his head feeling like it was stuffed solid with ill, he'd take that security, wrap every shred of comfort he could find around himself, and just hide for a while.
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
4:52 pm
Dusk
It ought to be magic and mystery and romance and excitement, but what it actually is is half light and drizzle and nearly getting knocked off your bike by some tosser driving a silver ghost car and talking on a mobile phone, and coming home to an empty house.
[so that's Luke in a bad mood then .....]
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
4:39 pm
logic
green before red, blue before white, savory before sweet, love before pain, blood before sex.
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004
11:49 am
giraffe
*blink*
*blink*
No - still there.
like a cartoon come to life, and so totaly out of place it couldn;t have been more sureal if he'd actually woken up in Twelve Monkeys.
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Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
12:37 am
explore
it's kind of scary, looking out into the dark and the shadows around the edges, but he knows everything there is to know withing the narrow circle of the burners, so what else is he to do? Sit and fester, watching the elders die one by one, or head out into the darkness and try?
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Monday, June 28th, 2004
12:40 am
seldom
rare moments of clarity - golden dust motes in sunlight or something - not like that but the unusual moments where the brain takes off down seldom taken byroads and ends you up somewhere you couldn't have expected.
*****
it makes me a little sad that they've had to resort to sponsorship - the farewell message now reads 'go check out the sponser links and then tell someone you love them' and - yeah. I liked that it wasn't a commercial zone.
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
9:13 pm
wash
dirty grey light coming in through dingy mylon lace curtains - the flat was a depressing dump. Flat. More like a room, furnished by a psychotic pensioner who hated students.
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Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
11:36 am
grey
Grey - the word's spelt *grey* and that little bout of persnickety nitpicking has completley frozen my brain for anything more creative to do with it.
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Sunday, June 13th, 2004
11:23 pm
moose
moose, moose, moose on the loose!
except that nursery rhyme chant is only hysterical if your five, and not when there's a couple of tons of bull moose standing in the middle of the road and ice under your wheels and FUCK!
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Friday, June 11th, 2004
1:18 am
goo
oh god that's disgusting! No way. Who the *hell* think's babies are cute, with their grabbing hands and stinking daipers and mouthing rusks to pasty goo and spreading that all over with ting crawling fingers.
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Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
12:26 am
ink #2
crawling over the skin like scratches, worms, maggots and corruption in ink and pigment-mixed blood, to summon and to bind, to call and to capture, liminal but without bounds.
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Monday, June 7th, 2004
10:25 am
ink
The desktop is scratched, etched and tattoed with the minutie of school politics. Benton hearts Fran, maths sucks, Bill sucks dick. Blue ink and blond scarred wood.
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Sunday, June 6th, 2004
6:56 pm
doctor
it didn't take much to fix the rsults the way she wanted them. Not too good, because nothing was more likely to make an admin assistant decide to cross check than a string of perfect 4.0's, but pretty damn healthy. If you're going to go to all the effort of hacking the computing dept to doctor your grades, it has to be worthwhile.
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
1:38 pm
solve
He turned the puzzle box round and round in his hands. Smooth and cool and heavy - metal denser than he'd expected the first time he'd touched it. The pattern of interlocking blocks, slight shadings in steel on steel, slick ridges between the sections, and no closer to a solution than he'd been then.
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Monday, May 24th, 2004
1:00 pm
sour
the sour little twist to her mouth was just the cherry on the god damned pie. You'd have thought he'd insulted her mother and tried to mack on her while her husband was holding her pretty little hand from the look of her, and when all he had done was say howdie, how's that meant to make a man feel welcome?
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Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
2:01 am
After
there's a fault line in your memories. Before and After, and it's not even like it was such a big event at the time. If you'd realised that that was going to be your watershed maybe you'd have done thing's differently instead of being stuck now After the argument.
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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
1:34 pm
Barely
it's all about the posibility that things could have gone another way - barely graduated, barely made it, barely got one foot on the ladder - and it all makes you so aware of the other universes where you didn't, where you went out instead of studying, or where you kissed Darrel instead of Alicia. It makes you wonder about 'barely worth it'.
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Monday, May 17th, 2004
6:00 pm
half
lost - that's all he can feel - lost without the other half of his soul, his world, his *self* and if he should have known better than to give anyone that much of his heart, well then he was stupid as well as lost, and he can accept that if he has too.
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Sunday, May 9th, 2004
10:04 pm
grade
flour pushed through mesh after mesh untill it's soft like skin and dreams and scented with the purest oils and rubbed through linen and silk again to work out the lumps - only the finest cosmetics for my lady.
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Friday, May 7th, 2004
4:50 pm
Daisy
daisy chain - not as easy as it looks. Nothing like it's innocent counterpart, which was all delicate concentration and cut grass and sunshine and skinned knees in his memory. No, daisychains these days were sweat and lube and come and loosing himself completely.
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Thursday, May 6th, 2004
2:12 pm
return
"that's a key factor in deciding that, you know?"
she taps her cigarette ash out into the tin tray and takes a sip of whisky.
"how many times you go back to someone, and how many times after than he comes to you and keeps coming when you never let him in."
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Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
4:36 pm
crisis
oh if only you knew! Whch you won't, because I'm doing quite scarily well at locking the screams and the tears in with the headache and smiling and sounding fine. The thing about crises? They pass. Like fever breaking. If they don't break you first.
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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
6:26 pm
raise
it's been something to watch it go up - progress almost every day - even over night sometimes, with the arc lights going and three teams of workmen, and it's like a phoenix, somehow, sleek and golden and vibrant out of the ashes and dust, and it seems kinda wrong that it'll still be 'just' the Heisman building.
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Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
11:10 pm
synthetic
fake and bright on her tongue, sweeter than sugar and a texture not to be found anywhere in nature - perfect cotton candy, in fact, folding like air into temporary sticky wads at the back of her mouth and dissolving into chemicals and silliness as she swallowed, eager to lick the last threads from her lover's lips.
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Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
11:48 am
click
Clean and sharp and dispassionate. The click of a thousand keys under tens of fingers, and nothing in the steady clatter gave any clue to the occasional men who walked through the pool about the emotions that filled the room.
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Friday, April 16th, 2004
12:05 am
clever
Clever ought to be a compliment, but somehow ... no. Not in that tone of voice, not with that look, that tilt to the shoulders.
"You're a clever lad. You'll figure things out."
threats heavy in the air, and he still didn't know.
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2004
11:32 pm
raise
He felt helpless in the face of the seemingly effortless asscent his one-time colleague made through the ranks, year on year, always the youngest, the most-decorated, the most golden, and by his side everyone else was as in shadow, and yet still he could not find it in his heart to hate the man.
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Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
5:04 pm
Copy
It's a careful act of artifice and observation.
Hours of practice to get the line of the eyeshadow just so, to match the shade of the gloss, touch up the hair to the perfect shine and style. The walk, the hand motions, the little scrunch of the nose when she knows she shouldn't be laughing.
Just like her.
It's a careful act of worship.
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Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
12:32 am
brand
The logo was white, clear against the weathered tan and raised veins of the back of his hand, his wrist. The other mark, the one that had stayed an angry red for so long, blended cream into cream unseen elsewhere.
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Friday, April 2nd, 2004
4:48 pm
PLAYGROUND
sitting on the swings at night, once the drunks are long gone and the air is col and damp with dewm and there's nothing but the very distant burr of traffic and the odd bird that's forgetten that streetlamps don't make a dawn - that's where there is peace and space to think.
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Thursday, April 1st, 2004
1:30 am
complete
worn smooth by the years of water rolling over it, the stone is smooth, pale dove grey against the cold chapped redness of her hand. Smooth and round and solid, filling her palm, like the waves and the wind and the gulls filled her ears, like her memories filled her heart.
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Thursday, March 18th, 2004
12:09 am
green
bottle glass washed soft and milky with salt water and sand.
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Monday, March 15th, 2004
12:26 am
Flight
with the lights flashing and sweat burning in her eyes, muscles screaming in acid and the beat driven the roiling bodies around her, nothing could reach her, pull her down, pull her back, force her to remember.
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Friday, March 12th, 2004
12:53 am
orchid
Silver and blue, harsh bright colours and an elegent sweep - unnatural, fixed, and an act of beauty, every element in key, every aspect spot on to create that impace as she stood carefully framed in the door and let the room fall sient and notice her.
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Friday, March 5th, 2004
12:26 am
Nails
The clean slick slide of new nailvarnish under her fingertips was a neat sensation. Almost as neat as the play of shine off the metalic shine and the colours that refracted like rainbows from the spinning lights.
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
4:59 pm
Charm
On the surface it can be sleazy. A slick coating that's meant to ease things and only leaves a grimy reside. But when it's sincere and whole - that smile or that moment of connection, then it can light you up and the sheen is like wood varnished with a thousand touches of hands on a newel post
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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
11:40 am
continue
Pick up the toys, collect up the plates and the mugs, rinse out the bottles, check in on the sleeping babes under their warm fleece blankies. Whipe down the kitchen surfaces, empty the bin, dig the lego out from the sofa cushions, listen to the kidlets breathing deap and even.
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Monday, March 1st, 2004
11:10 am
Worthless.
If someone's yelling abuse, at least they've noticced you. Even a punch, red with rage and blood, is better than a casual back hander or a body-block between you and whatever it is that is worth their attention, thier desire.
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
8:20 pm
withdrawn
She could make out five different colours in her nail vernish, like archeological layers where it had peeled, or where she'd picked at it. That was only on her left hand. Seeing her right would mean unwinding from her little curl of misery on the wrinkled sheets.
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Saturday, February 28th, 2004
2:05 am
crept
he wasn't really paying attention, so the whole think pretty much crept up on him, tiny little changes day in day out that meant that all of a sudden he was facing the fact that his friend was licking his neck and he wasn't *expecting* it and he couldn't quite fathom all the concequences, but no doubt about it, he liked it.
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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
12:21 pm
Union
His eyes locked on yours, not even the tiny glances flicking to his lips, your tongue, the point where the light catches his piercing, none of that breaks the totality of gaze.
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
12:00 pm
Reaching
Nothing is ever easy, and the few thing that do seem to fall into your lap are never the things that you actually really wanted, coming to you too easy to just hold you down when you should be stretching for the real prize, the true and real and perfect things.
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
1:50 pm
minimum
It's the least you could do!
No - really - this is.
It's a stupid sit-com come back, but really, a few minutes just alone, please? Alone without people and responsibilities and 'ought to do's and questions and just a base line minimum of imput.
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
5:19 pm
wick
Candle light, all butter and warmth, a hazy glow licking over skin and fur and silks, and then with focus, with attention narrowing down to a tiny spark of pure white heat dancing on a blackened speck of string.
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
12:22 am
North
It's like a loadstone, a constant awareness of where home is. Not where he's living, of course, although that would be more usefull when he's three sheets to the wind and the fucking earth is showing off it's curvature, but to *home*. True north to his heart, or some such bullshit.
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
12:51 am
Switch
Just like that she changed. The yeilding agreeable flirtation morphed into sound and furry and sharp beating hands and a kick to the crotch that left him breathless, eyes burning, bent over and able only to hear the clatter of heels on concrete as she ran.
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:53 pm
cracked
"you're crazy" seems to be something she's hearing a lot lately. "You nuts?" Lots of other variations on a theme, and really, truly? All she wanted was the same as anyone else - to do something that would make her happy and keep a roof over her head, some gas in the tank, and a little bit over for toys and treats.
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2:43 am
candy
Cotton candy, gritty and pink-sweet on your tongue and sticky fingers catching on hair in the wind, with the lights swirling in the dark and the music filling the fairground
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Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
4:45 pm
Bike
Two of my guys are big with the bike love - pedal bikes. Luke for the exercise as much as the freedom, Tom because that's just who he is - he'll probably never get a car as long as he lives in London. Probably neither would Luke and I've only just realised how similarn they are in this.
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
10:10 am
Anniversary
It's all about the memories, and to be honest he finds it kinda scary, trying to remember who he used to be and knowing how long it's been by the way that everything's changed but without him ever noticing.
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Monday, February 9th, 2004
10:51 am
Coaster
Once the coasters were neatly alligned with the corners of the ironed embroidered runner, the flowers - an iris for Lily and a rose for Beth - turned to face them, the clock ticking was loud in the room.
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
12:39 am
repeat
Sometimes it's the only thing that sinks in, that eventually gets under your skin and into your bones and gets you to trust that it's really real. Simple repetition, over and over, the slighest variations to keep you from boiling anger, and endless reaassurance that it's true.
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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
12:35 am
Formal
There'sa grace to her movements that it's rare to see, nowadays. Even in her most relaxed moments she is aware, not only of the shadings of ettiquete, but of their principle, the concern for the comfort of others. She is a true lady.
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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
2:51 pm
Camera
The cameras were a way to be someone else, a way to heat-seal the edges of the masks with lights and business. A way to show the surface and keep the rest of himself safely hidden in plain view.
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
11:03 am
Least.
Least is a meak and vicious word. The least you could do, the knife edged whine of suburbia. At least it's not worse, right? At least you're not actually a hooker, an addict. At least you're still in school. It's the least you could do.
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Sunday, January 25th, 2004
11:34 pm
Branch
Bare branches against the sky. Connections and divisions, a spiralled, spidered map of friends and aquaintences, lovers, feuds, tribes, family, users and usees,world without end, amen.
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1:43 am
Aside to self
I need to figure out when the oneword site is updated - it's faintly disatisfying to see the list of words-that-I-missed after having checked back once or twice and found the same word, unchanged. And yes, i could do them anyway, but somehow that seems wrong.
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1:43 am
Used
The handle fits his palm, worn wood like satin, warm and almost alive, transmiting the blade up into him though every practised motion.
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Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
11:56 pm
clarity
Sharp clear mountain air and time to step outside the whole situation, literally and metaphorically. Come back with the music blazing and a plan of action, tired in the muscles and awake in the brain.
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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
3:20 pm
Flight
soaring or running? towards or away? Figuring that out is always the tricky part.
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Monday, January 19th, 2004
11:14 pm
Burn
music like lightening and chemical thunder, driving him on and standing every hair on him edge up and sparking against the smoke and the neon. Burn bright, burn hard, burn out.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
10:39 pm
Curtain
net curtain's twitching - that ultimate symbol of working class suburban conformity, but curtains draped in decedent richness conceal and reveal, seven veils, the decadent also.
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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
4:52 pm
Weakness
Having that soft point always worried him - that people would see it, and worse see it as weakness, as the potential for being hamstrung that he could never quite forget about. Kindness. Weakness. Not the same, most of the time.
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Sunday, January 11th, 2004
12:03 am
Haunt
Memories made it hard to stay - memories so clear they were more like ghosts of people who might not have died yet, but certainly were no longer who they had been then. So hard to stay here in this club with the corners full of whispers and no one to shake the memories away with laughter and vodka.
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Friday, January 9th, 2004
5:12 pm
logic
there's no reason to assume that just because I'm a woman I'm not logical. Not only can I code round you with one arm tied behind my back, mr, ignoring the 'logic' of your rules makes a lot of sense. Got me you didn't it?
[Mal speaking to Neo, I think]
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
4:27 pm
Clean
Clear and simple - that's how things should be, right? Clean lines. No clutter or mess or tangles or ties. The more he throught about it the more it sounded like 'cold and hard and lonely'
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
4:29 pm
Ready
set, Go! summoning memories of school sports and girl guides, and otherwise stalling my brain, apparently.
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Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
12:57 am
note
worthy - and also ephemeral, be it pen and skin, pencil and paper, chalk and board, or a souring sustained vocal joy.
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
10:16 pm
precision
obsession. Care and control. Neat, without the nifty. It ought to be souless, but a robot can be precise. Precission is soul-driven. focussed. channelled and trammelled and building and one day breaking.
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Monday, December 29th, 2003
4:05 am
stream
The tug of water running around his ankles was enough to draw the anger out of him, the steady stream of muttered curses ebbing in the tumble of the current.
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Monday, December 15th, 2003
11:13 am
Elements
If you keep disecting then you end up with nothing except pure hard elements of cold heavy events, and she wasn't ready to bury the living fluttering emotional synthesis of it all just yet.
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
11:40 am
Discontent
Itchy in her skin, picky and fussing and unable to settle to anything. Not music, not code, not even a whole three minute video on EAM. In the end she threw the remote across the room and grabbed boots and her car keys and headed for the door.
[note : EAM is the Eden Alternative channel, and this snippet is Mal - the word chimed so strongly with her muse space right now.]
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Monday, December 8th, 2003
2:04 pm
Regard
it's a calm cool thing, regard, like viewing the blood tooth and nail action from behind a safety glass screen, and yet somehow the kiss of it is worth more, in some twisted way, than the smack of closer observation.
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Thursday, December 4th, 2003
10:55 pm
Constant.
Iit's not a flashy virtue. It's not heroism, or charisma, or besting someone in combat or saving the day. It's not great art or a voice that would hold a songbird spellbound, but it's something. Being constant.
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Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
11:46 pm
Depth
That's what he's alway's worried he doesn't have - what he was attracted to in other people, and what he maybe drowned out by trying too hard. Depth of character - reserves - something that would make you think 'yeah - there's a guy who could cope in a crisis - someone who knows who he is.
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Monday, November 17th, 2003
11:45 am
Orchestra
think music,
think power,
think emotion,
think class,
think money,
think alien,
think more than the sum of it's parts,
think talent and years of work and beautiful ephemeral things.
Think joy and tears and the way the hairs on the back of your neck lift in the presence of beauty.
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Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
10:59 am
skills
hard won or innate? Warp and weft of identity - skills and character.
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Thursday, November 6th, 2003
9:37 am
bank
mounds of money - how's that for two in one? Safety, surity, defence, obstruction, walled in and walled out, like a maze of burial mounds.
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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
12:40 am
Foundation
That's strength - not height but roots. Perminance, strength; the unseen unsung that enables the soaring glory.
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Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
3:11 pm
Scout
Honour - at least on the surface, but really it's all about the reconnoitring, looking out for your group, keeping the way clear and safe so that they don't even know there's anything that they needed to have worried about. Clearing the path, literal or metaphorical.
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Friday, October 17th, 2003
6:31 pm
Final
Heavy and definite and complete. Unlike it's architectural bretherin, then. and yet 'Fin' is not 'completed'. and thein lies pathos.
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Thursday, October 16th, 2003
1:05 pm
Forward
shiny dynamic 50's robots and space sheeps[1] and it's sleek and hard and cultural MSG, when really, incrimental baby steps, day on day, inch on inch, and just don't *stop*.
[1] I meant ships, but on reflection : the freudian typo can stay.
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Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
5:38 pm
Dedicate
It's got to be something heart and soul to count - not a paper whisper thin dedication, dry ink and limp linen inscription, but hale and hearty and bleeding with truth and trying.
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